Yes

I'm still angry,
no, i don't forgive you,
yes it's your fault,
yes, i want to fucking punch you in the face

Yes, i resent you.
Yes, I envy you.
Yes, I often wish you would disappear.
Yes, you deserve it,
No, I can't remember why I love you
No, I won't say it back if I can't remember,
Yes, yes, yes i'm biting my tougue and yes, thats my biggest regret

and yeah
when i look you in the eye
i see nothing