once or

twice a month?
aviators and that one teal sweater
a bird necklace, unruly bangs and fingernails painted
only one color, always
insensitive, irresponsible, sarcastic, merciless, harsh, tough, closed,
but happy. happy, laughing, exciting, up for anything, optimistic, confident, strong,
red
red, with a beautiful future and karma around the corner

long, straight hair
black toes and that one purple sweater
a heart-shaped locket full with blind hope that things might be better
blunt scars on both hips, and a very crowded bedroom wall
awkward fingers with poetry wrapped around them, reckless and willing
fingers that mixed wine with gatorade and held a half-finished.... fishing pole
emotional, intense, honest, feeling, blood-pulsing, destructive, nostalgic, loving and alive. alive, twisting, thinking, spiralling sprawling
purple
purple, with a handful of promises and legs ready to run

purple and red mixed
they blended
even with a summer apart, they locked together
for seemingly always

but maybe not always

and when love isnt ever enough something else is needed
something on my part, something on yours
and we both failed, just in different ways
and im not angry anymore, hopefully you arent guilty anymore
so lets go back to basics
and please, lets blend
i know we can blend