Good Birthday

Your purple flower's gone
sunflowers forgotten
But i've got a pretty dress and brownies and a necklace,
and i'll be just fine

more than fine

you'll be surprised,

she said,
as your solitude subsides

MORP

strike...
3, 4 5 10 15 50
im out

Identity

is maybe most important to me
Because It's a challenge
I'm always back to this place,
where I can't find my core
Where it's impossible to reconcile everything that lives in me....
Because red and blue are maybe too different to make purple

And i'm never to sure of anything
Never too sure

limbo

is a funny thing
and it's very boring
and I don't like this ambiguous existance lacking in extremes
and I don't like trying to locate myself under all this thick skin
all this busy busy busy
Don't like the way I worry about you
don't like the way you look at me
with absolutely nothing in your eyes
don't like the nothing that's between us
is there nothing inbetween us?

Us

Me is doing fine
Us is not
And I don't know what new blue Mackenzie will do about that

i have issues with

age
ambivalence
walls
society
honesty

also balance
also swimming.... shining
also breathing, thinking
also you and him and her and them

there

is always
fucking always
a way to fix it
you have to stand up and challenge yourself to find it
this is truth
if it wasn't, maybe I wouldn't be here typing it

dare you to move