this girl

is trapped/free
red/blue
down/up
graceful/awkward
calm/nervous
and she is making progress

Grey Blue Friday

and you still don't know everything

Hey you

it feels great to be alright with you
no complaints on you're front, you're my shining little start again
that's refreshing huh?
maybe this could work out after all

It was a sky blue thursday
i mean, i'm ignoring the shadows
because they're irritating!
so the daily shit, i threw on the floor
I realize that it really shouldn't be this hard
do normal people function like this?
But I'm pretending it's just a typical thing
because i'm learning how to deal and I like that
a lot

At least, now, I can see my targets;
my problems and bullshit
and I can aim, shhhhoot
eventually i'll get some bullseyes for sure

but today? i'll do the dishes, work on my new playlist, do my homework
and sleep

oh,

fuck off

I am

such a jem in dance class
smiling futtering blushing cute little thing
glowing, for some reason
sky sky sky blue

I am such a ghost in the morning
stoic silent quiet sleepy serious thing
frozen, for some reason
grey grey grey blue

I am such a mess at night
figdeting fussing bundle-of-nerves
nervous gnawing hopeless free falling slippery thing
Burning, for some reason
dark dark dark blue
deep deep deep blue
blood blood blood blue

true blue,
all through

I'm

unlocked
and I want everyone to know my blueprints
broken itching twitching laughing easy free better,
ugly hiding dishonest skipping missing hitting mess
no secrets